Feeling horrible, right?
How exactly are you feeling?
Feeling heavy… like there is a big stone on me.
Oh! That’s really difficult to deal with. What is this stone made of?
Many random thoughts and emotions.
Hmm.. that’s what makes it complex.
Let’s start by picking one thought.
Ok.. I tried my best today but I still couldn’t prepare good food for guests.
You know I feel really ashamed, I feel inadequate. It’s embarrassing.
Hmm.. I know, you tried really hard with good intent, gave it all your time and it feels really bad when we fail.
I also feel afraid.
What would those people think of me?
What can they possibly think?
I’m not good enough. I don’t have a cooking sense. I don’t know how to manage my home. I am not a great person to associate with.
Hmm.. you’re right. They wouldn’t be too harsh. They should be able to see that it happens. All of us make mistakes and fail at things despite our best efforts at times.
Hehe.. some of them will not be so gentle. They may judge for a while, gossip about
Hmm.. are they the ones who will stop talking to you?
Hehe.. Now, if I think of it, they won’t. Everyone is going through so much every day, this will only make them feel better for a while. They will forget later.
Hmm.. that’s a great service. You’re making people feel better.
Hehe.. actually, our mistakes, failures and flaws help us connect with people at a human level. It’s okay to make mistakes in front of people.
Hmm.. that’s quite insightful.
Well, at least I learnt something out of this. My pain didn’t go waste.
Great. How’s the pain now, by the way?
Surprisingly, it’s not there anymore. I feel like that complex, heavy stone like structure has been smoothened.
That’s great. Sleep tight now. Good night.
Good night, indeed.
This was her conversation with her heart. Yes, she is her best friend and she understands herself the best. If she doesn’t, it’s not fair to expect others to. If she doesn’t forgive herself, how will others ever be able to. If she isn’t gentle on herself, others can be harsh too. If she doesn’t love herself and care for her heart, how will others find it worthy enough?